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I Have Only One Reality (21 Mar 17)

I've been making good progress, literally daily, but there is only so much good spin from a recovering from a serious stroke, as I did between late Jan. and early Feb.  I recorded a mild stroke that I had recovered almost most entire from.   But I was too soon was back in hospital for an even longer, and more serious, which left be with an assortment of abilities and disabilities that were as shocking as they were strange.  I would draw as well has ever, however, but not type or and write.  I was able to read as fashion, but I kept forgetting the overall picture.  According to witnesses I was able to get around -- indeed, drove to the hospital with Traveling Matt -- but was only technically literate at the time.

I spent another 10 or 12 weeks in hospital, this time, with multiple CAD scans and MRI, as well a ECGs, and it took a while before they decided was at blood intermittent clotting in the heart before the stroke.  (I'll be another week, at least, before I can dress this up in technical horse pucky.)

So, now I'm on blood thinners for life, checking weekly to see that I am on the razor's edge bleeding to death on the one, and my blood clotting up and resulting in a stroke on the other hand.  I'm told it's pretty much routine now ... just never forget to make your monthly check up.

I haven't appended any therapy or special closes yet.  Though I was discharged from St. Joseph's around the 20th of the month.  He said have no, in fact, attending the coin show it coin show at the end of the month.  But I was I was quite nervous, having gotten used to being under constant scrutiny, and, in fact, constantly having to rediscover simply thinks like using the lock door ... in fact, I still can't out entirely figure out how the microwave oven works.  It's literally beyond...

I've been on my own more or less for about four months.  I've been in a state of perpetual panic over everything from slicing bread to holding more than an object it both hands at once.  But has day is a gain.  Every increase in my powers, is that owed back to be me … and I hope to collect every of penny.   Significantly, I’ve begun to write again … not a little better every day, but a lot better every day.  I’m still pretty shaky, but I’m the hang of just the words again, and a sense of style again.   I may even hopes of being more or less as fit for writing in as little in month.

I can’t pretend I haven’t slaved over this for over an hour … probably a lot more.  I will have many mistakes that I can’t see, and will seem foolish later.   But what I wrote yesterday was more difficult than what I wrote yesterday, and what I intent to wrote tomorrow will be more difficult still.  There is no alternative.  I grow again or I will die.

  • Listening to: Televison likely, Tom Waits, Yes, or Blondie.
  • Reading: "Julian Comstock", Robert Charles Wilson
  • Watching: ...the little words moving across the screen
  • Playing: With little toy cars (1l18 scale).
  • Eating: Yes, but trying to watch my weight.
  • Drinking: Are you paying the tab? I'll have a Dramboui
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sharpenr Featured By Owner Mar 23, 2017
I know it's hard. It's a slow return to normal from a major problem like yours. It took me almost a full year to get my arm and hand back in control, and another 6 months for fine motor skills. 
TaralWayne Featured By Owner Mar 23, 2017  Professional General Artist
Of course, I worry that at my age I don't time in abundance to spare in recovery of...  still, what is the alternative to recovery from.  I could watch television instead, but there's always living to 97 ... I wouldn't want to wast it on 30 more years of TV.
sharpenr Featured By Owner Mar 23, 2017
The main thing is to keep busy, and you'll notice in the long run that the problems you have had, have become minor or relatively less stressfull. Take care.
TaralWayne Featured By Owner Mar 24, 2017  Professional General Artist
"Busy" is the only way the got.
Cheetaur Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2017
Improve you will do
There is only try

Be well
pete1672 Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2017
Sorry to learn of your recent issues. Best wishes to you always!
Zerozero204 Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2017
I hope you get better, even if it's just a little recovery each day. There's going to be a bit of a re-training period, but you are strong enough to do it!
HotRod-302 Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2017
Take care of yourself and keep plugging along. We're all with you! 
dmfalk Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2017
My thoughts are with you.

TomFraggle Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2017
Hope things improve for you.  Sorry to hear you've had it rough lately, but glad to hear things are looking on the bright side.
3eggnogfatality Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Please be well, Taral. Stay strong, fellow.
LeeM Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2017
Like Kinsfire's mother, my own mum made a full recovery from a stroke - several, in fact, over the course of several years. Although wheelchair-bound from other causes, she remained fiercely independent and mentally sharp for years afterward. I hope you take all the time you need to recover, and we'll be here for you. My very best wishes.
kaisernathan1701 Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Glad your getting better bit by bit :)
Kinsfire Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
It is something you will deal with for the remainder of your life, but as my mother shows, you can live a damned good life. What you described above is almost exactly my mother's case (minus the drawing - she's never drawn in her life, as far as I'm aware *grin*), and that was something like four years ago. She only just gave up on driving recently, simply because she's gotten to an age where it's very tiring for her to do so.

You'll get through this, as long as you remember the medication, as you already said.
DARKZADAR-ZERO Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
best of good luck to you and hope you will recover .
XUnlimited Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2017
I'll pray so you get better soon.
DW13-COMICS Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2017
Hope you get well, soon.
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